Prayer !!

On a rainy day, I peeped out of my window Saw a child playing with her doll Innocent smile on her lips Petal soft cheeks and little fingers Legs which could not hold herself straight Tears ran down my cheeks As I watched each drop roll down, I could see me in every stage of my life. I asked God, Why did I grow? Where is my smile that took away many hearts? Why am I alone here with noone to wipe my tears? Why can't I sleep on my mother's lap forgetting all worries? Why can't I hold my father's hand and keep walking endlessly? Oh, God..please take me back to those golden days.. God, didn't answer and as time flew I fell asleep I was standing in a desert and I saw a lot of people there. There was a tall dark, ugly man with a beard who seemed to have all diseases in the world, He was sitting on a stone in deep thought. As I walked towards him, I saw a small child struggle to walk in the sand I knew why I grew up, I needed strong legs for the journey I saw a girl, crying over a thorn in her feet I knew why I grew up, I learnt to bear pain I saw another man dying of thirst I knew why I grew up, I needed to be tolerant for tougher times I saw a man, yelling at everyone I knew why I grew up, I learnt to be patient and compassionate I went to the old man, and stared at him and asked why are you so miserable? Why am I here? Is it hell? What is that "hell"? That is where sinners go after death. Ha Ha.."sinners?". Child, there is no such thing as heaven or hell. People who have spent their lives usefully have a pleasant life here others just make their lives miserable even here. There's no punishment anywhere its they who punish themselves. I understood what he said..how foolish of me? I had a wonderful life. He asked me, Do you really accept that? I asked him How do you read my mind? I know u, in and out. I asked him..So are you God? Oh ! Ha Ha.. Is that how you call me..so be it. I like that name. Child, Call me however you want.I'm in-charge of this place. Lot of people talk to me everyday and call me by different names I started liking him..he was funny Why are you looking so tired? Come on .. everyone scold me when things go wrong. No one appreciates me .. though I try my best to make them happy That's not true..everyday we all thank you for a wonderful life. Ha Ha..child, Everyday, I hear you saying "My parents miss me now so take care of them. Take care of my sister/brother and keep them happy. I've got a caring husband and in-laws. Keep us all happy. Please see that my husband loves me always inspite of all mistakes I make And please be with me always". I said..smiling to myself..well..I don't remember exactly but still.. isn't that good? Ok..that's good. But then..before ur next prayer do you know how many times you scold me? I'm really sorry..but I just feel like blaming you when things go wrong. Aren't you the one who controls everything? So, if you are with me then why do I make mistakes? It's not your fault child..everyone does it. How can you learn without making mistakes? Yes..I've learnt a lot. So why am I here? Am I dead? Can't I go home? Like, will I have re-birth? Ha Ha..not so soon. Today you asked me something. So I thought you needed special attention and got you here. We'll decide on whether you want to go back or not. So, you don't smile now ..uh? Yes, I don't. Why? I don't know..but I always have something to worry about. As soon as I solve a problem another arises and life goes on. Hmm..when you were a child why were you smiling? I think, I had no worries. So why do you worry now? Don't you beleive that I'll take care of things. So as you grew up you didn't want me. You took things in your own hands. Child, stop worrying about life and you'll automatically be cheerful. I smiled and said yes I'll.. So, next complaint is you're alone..uh? Yes, I'm. Really? Am I not with you? And he winked.. But I miss my parents. Child, understand that every person has different roles to perform..and they need to keep moving as their roles are fulfilled. It's time for your parents to move higher as they've done their duties well. So, this temporary separation prepares you mentally for a final separation. No..you can't do that to my parents. You can't be cruel. Child, Will I let you suffer? I'm not cruel to you. I know that you'll miss your parent's love so I gave you someone to love you more. Didn't I? I gave you a lap to cry upon, a hand to hold lifelong to take care of you always. And, I want you to show it back too because even he has noone except you !! Yes, I understand. The rain had stopped The streets were clean So were I. I prayed again "Oh God, thanks for an excellent life"