Stars !!

When I was a child, I looked upon the sky and wondered How many stars are there and Why are they all feminine? I grew up as a pretty girl An apple of everyone's eye, Fell in love with a guy and Prayed to God he should be mine. Remembered my dad telling to me "Our family honour lies with you". I erased him from my mind and Married another and started loving him. I did my duty as a daughter Noone understood me. Everything was new, I missed my parents, Still I strived hard to earn everyone's heart. I failed again and again...but Thought I'd win one day. Once my husband told me "I was happy before marriage. I should have never married". It broke my heart into pieces. I prayed to God to take away my life What's the use in life when he hates me? I sat back and thought Why is he unhappy? What did I do wrong? Isn't it me who should be unhappy? I lost my lover just for him Life has changed more than 100% for me I've to shoulder responsibilities Make no mistakes and satisfy 2 families What did he lose to feel unhappy? He lives in the same house and gets his bed-coffee He lives with his parents and chats happily with them Still I wondered how can I make him happy? I go out to shopping taking hours to shop May be he's upset with that..Why do I do that? I want to get the best in the cheapest price He doesn't understand..so I stopped shopping. Thinking he would love me more..He did not. I stopped complaining to him Keeping my burdens within myself Thinking he would love me more..He did not. Life went by..and everyday I loved him more. He never appreciated me or loved me back. But never failed to shout at me when he was upset. I still told to myself.."He surely loves me". Just a blind faith. But I did my duty as a wife Noone understood me. We had a son...cute and naughty. He made me forget all my worries. Once he held my sari and told me "Amma, please don't go..stay with me". For these sweet words, I left my job. My only purpose in life was him. Days went and we had a daughter. Life was cool but still everyday I asked to myself Does he still love me? Is he really unhappy? As time flew, my son grew up I prayed that he should get into the best college He got selected but left me and joined a hostel "I'll be back in 4 years, mom" He promised me... I missed him a lot and waited eagerly He came back with a job..and I thanked all Gods He told me he has to go far away from me I missed him a lot and waited eagerly Years flew, and it was time to get my little daughter married And she was in love with a guy I tried to explain that she can never adapt to a different custom I thought my experience should help her She did not heed..she was adamant..love is blind. We got her married to her lover. She hated me because I advised her. She thanked her Dad and told him " I love you , Dad".. I did my duty as a mother Noone understood me. I searched for the most beautiful girl for my son I searched for all the qualities in her to make a perfect wife I was successful and they were made for each other But, I forgot to search for a daughter-in-law I tried to pass on my experiences to my daughter-in-law Which seemed to her like just interference So, I was again unwelcome. Even my husband blamed me saying "generation-gap" I tried to adjust I did my duty as a mother-in-law Noone understood me. I took care of my grand-children and told them stories My son left to US with "his" family.. I did my duty till now Noone understood me. ... We were both alone again. I had become weak with all these challenges One fine day God decided to end my sufferings I went to heaven and stood before him God asked me "Are you happy now..all your life you prayed to me to end your life. Finally I've answered your prayers" I told him that I'm not happy HE asked me "Why?" I told him I can't leave my husband alone. I want to take care of him always. HE thought for a while and gave me a boon HE made me a star twinkling brightly in the sky From where I could always see my husband,children and their family. I stayed there watching over them Guiding them when they needed me One day, my husband cried "I loved you so much. I was so happy to have a wife like you. I miss you" Those were the only words that I wanted to hear from him. But I realized people don't realize the value of someone when we're with them Tears dropped from my eyes and it fell as a raindrop on my husband's lap. He looked up, as if, he heard me calling him I hid behind a cloud becoz I did not want to cry before him I wanted him to think that I was happy always and he was the best husband I waited endlessly One day he was about to die I started to vanish and fall on the earth to be beside him And follow him to his next birth - Be it a cat or a caterpillar !! Now I know why stars are feminine Every selfless woman becomes a star Noone understands or appreciates her. But God does !!