Eutopia Universe

Tagged by KK The preluding chapters are at the following links - Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5 Story in a nutshell so far - I was walking in the street at my lunch break while I saw a crowd. I saw a different kind of horror plant peeping out from a man-hole and out of curiosity entered into it. I saw clones of myself. My friend and teacher who were dead were also there. But suddenly everyone disappeared and I met Hitler who welcomed me to Eutopia Universe. He told me that they have brought me here to help them correct the world and eradicate anti-social elements in this world.

Chapter 6

"You mean, I was chosen for a very special mission. I don't beleive you. You, of all the people, would never want to do good to someone. I think you are all a terrorist group and you want to use me against my own country. " Hitler said "Oh no..all the books have portrayed me as a bad man. Is it bad to be strict and confident? I've learnt a lot in Eutopia. Please don't call me a terrorist..we need your help" "Oh my God !! my head is spinning. I'm not dead..I don't understand what you speak. Hey, Hitler, I need to go to office. I have my lover waiting for me. I need to call my boss ..where is my cell phone..The time ..oh..where is my watch?" My head was spinning with pictures of my family, the crowd, my lunch, cell phone ringing, a bus, an accident and I fainted. I woke up and saw that Hitler was not there. I wanted to get away from this weird place as early as possible. I ran through a door and turned behind. There was no door. I saw Mahatma Gandhi there. I respect him a lot and paid my respects to him. I asked him "Where am I, Gandhiji?". He replied, "Son, You have mistakenly entered a different universe. We thought of taking your help but seems you are no different from the selfish people out there who have no humanity. Gone are the days when people loved each other. There is hatred everywhere, an eye-for-eye is what today's world is about." I told, "But,Gandhiji, India is still a peaceful nation..its only the islamic terrorist groups that destroy peace in the nation". He led me into a room where there was a large theatre screen. We watched all the incidents that happened in India. I was deeply moved seeing some incidents. It showed some tapes of how terrorists are created. How true the saying is, "A child is how his mother made him". All the terrorists that we saw were either deserted by their parents immediately after birth or did not get the proper nurturing from them. Gandhiji spoke, "Son, do you see those people out there? Those young men are manufacturing bombs. These people have forgotton the sacrifices we made to bring peace. After I died, I atleast had a satisfaction that people would live happily. Now, its disheartening to see our men kill themselves. There's bloodshed everywhere. What can you do to save this world?" I thought for a while. "Gandhiji, terrorism is a disease which has spread so quickly among people. Hitler, told me that, the aim of this project is to eliminate anti-social elements". Gandhiji sadly said, "Ahimsa, is no longer considered a weapon". I told him, " But, killing one Osama Bin Laden or LTTE Prabhakaran will not solve this problem. There are not just a handful of anti-social elements to eradicate. People have to know more about Ahimsa. The education system has to change. There are no moral stories teaching basic values to our children. Noone knows the value of epics. Of what use is our education, if it doesn't help to mould our character? Even media has to play a major role. Instead of taking romantic movies there should be more meaningful movies. I think only if each individual changes the society would be free of terrorism. I know many of my friends in media & universities. We can take their help". ************* To be continued ************ Though I'd like to end the story, to keep the thread alive I'll stop here. Let me put Jeevan and Syam into trouble to continue the story !! KK sorry for the delay. Done !!

Life - a beautiful drama !!

There is a library with a lot of books and God is busy searching something.. "Here it is !!" ..he exclaims and starts writing the fate of a soul which is inside a mother's womb. He writes using invisible ink. He takes his time and stops at certain places, smiles by himself and suddenly gets serious and finally sheds a tear and at last closes that book with a sense of satisfaction..and starts another play searching for characters. Down at earth, a girl child is born. She is named "Shreya" .. people think it is numerology but with the various permutations of names available why this one? Its decided by HIM. Shreya grows and she doesn't have beautiful eyes nor fair complexion. She doesn't look pretty as Preethi, her classmate and sheds her first tear. God sends her mother to hug her and tell her "You are the most beautiful child ever created on this earth". Shreya experiences her first love..she starts loving herself, accepts her features and takes the first step towards her goal. God needs variety in his drama .. he balances physical and inner beauty. Shreya is intelligent and smart. Everyone tell her she is a blessed child. She thinks she is lucky and will win always. Little does she know that God has something else in store for her. She falls sick on her final exam day and that changes her career. She wanted to be a doctor but gets an engineering seat. She cries to God asking why did he desert her? God also sheds a tear but HE had taught Shreya a lesson. HE sent her father to console her and tell her "Everything happens for a reason. As long as you have a pure heart, God will never forsake you. Pray to God to give you what you deserve, not what you desire becoz you never know what you really need". She has learnt to accept failures. Shreya goes to the counselling hall half-heartedly ..among the 250 colleges she chooses one. Why this one? God only knows ;-). Of all the 5000 students, there is one guy, Kumar, who travels to college from Shreya's place. He is too smart and good-looking. Why does he like Shreya? A part of the drama. Shreya had never known a man in her life except her father. So far she had just received love and care from her parents. For the first time in her life, she loved and cared for another person. A person who has no relation to her, whom she has met just a few weeks ago. Kumar was a shy guy who has not spoken to any girl before. The feelings these two experienced are unexplainable. They understood each other so well. They loved and cared for each other more than themselves. College days were the most memorable days in Shreya’s life. She could think of noone else except Kumar..even Kumar had an infatuation towards Shreya. Shreya's intelligence made Kumar to compete. Kumar's love has killed Shreya's ego. They were transforming into better persons each day. They made a beautiful pair. God was ready with his suspense. Things seemed so fine till the final day of college..both of them were placed in very good companies but Shreya was posted to Blore and Kumar to Kolkatta. Shreya could not digest the thought of parting from Kumar even for a day. Shreya told Kumar that she wanted to be with him life long. Kumar told her “Shreya!! I like you so much. I adore you. Any guy is lucky to have a wife like you. But, you are born with a silver spoon and your parents would get you married within a year. My family depends on me. I’m not in a position to think about marriage. My mother has sacrificed so much to bring me up and she’ll never accept an inter-caste marriage. I’ll always miss you, we’re just friends. But hope atleast in our next birth we’re made for each other.” They both went their ways but day-by-day their love was increasing. They were not just friends. Meanwhile, Shreya’s parents had arranged for her marriage. What a complicated process it is…Out of millions of guys they narrowed down to 6 and horoscope filtered 3. They finally chose 1. A miracle in itself. The guy, Shankar, was supposed to meet her the next day. Shreya was upset. All her protests to postpone her marriage talks were in vain. Shreya: “Amma, please don’t send me away. I want to be with you always. I hate marriage. Marriage is pain. I’m like a butterfly now..happy and independent. I’ll lose these after marriage. Why should I marry?” Mom: “Shreya!! It is high time we get you married. We can’t take care of you always. Aren’t we happy? You are a blessed child and you’ll get a very good life partner.” Shreya: “Amma, yours was a love marriage. How can a guy who knows nothing about me, take care of me? Love can’t be forced, it has to come naturally. Mom: “We never opposed a love marriage. If you had chosen your life partner by yourself, we would have not objected. We gave you enough time and only after you told us that you don’t love anyone we started these arrangements. Even now its not late. Tell me, if you love Kumar, we’ll speak with his parents.” Shreya could not hide her tears. How could her mother know that she loved Kumar? Who else would have understood her better? She hugged her mom and cried Shreya: “Amma, you are so sweet but Kumar is a good friend, we can’t be life partners. I’m just afraid of marriage with a stranger” Mom: “It would all be fine. Shankar’s parents spoke nicely. It seems to be a nice family. You talk with Shankar and only if you like him we’ll proceed. Even before marriage you have a lot of time to understand each other. My mom didn’t see her husband properly till I was born. They started getting intimate only after 20 years of marriage. Things are so different now. Don’t think about anything and go to sleep. Let Shankar be carried away seeing how lovely you are ” Shreya couldn’t sleep. She called Kumar. Kumar started crying but wished her all the best. She pleaded him to ask his parents but he wasn’t ready. Shreya cried to God “Oh God!! Why are you so cruel? Why can’t I have Kumar? I love him so much. I can’t forget him.” She found no meaning in her life. She wanted to die. She took sleeping pills and wrote her note to her parents. “Amma/Appa I love you so much. You have been excellent parents. Its disheartening that your daughter should be a coward like me. I can’t love anyone else other than Kumar. I don’t want to spoil the life of another person. Let there be no customs of caste/creed in this society which breaks the heart of hundreds of people. Love is a beautiful feeling and I want to die with those memories alone. Let me be your child in all further births I have. I don’t regret dying now becoz anyway you’ve decided to send me to another house. Amma, I’ll always be in this house and sleep on your lap. You can talk to me I’ll hear you and with the level of understanding you have I think even you’ll hear/see me. Kumar, don’t cry now. I could not tolerate you crying the first time today. Let it be the last. I don’t blame you for my end. The society has to change but that won’t happen unless each individual changes. You weren’t bold enough to take the first step. I’m disappointed, but I love you. With Love, Shreya” Shreya was about to fall down. God held her in his arms. She opened her eyes. God: I had many plans for you but you spoiled it. Why did you choose to end your life? Shreya: I’m disappointed. You never answered my prayers. I don’t blame you. There are people who worship you 10 times a day. So its fair that you help them than me. I just take you for granted. My mom told me when I was a child, “God is always watching over us. He’ll take care of you”. So I thought you are my friend but I was wrong. If I had undertaken the vrathams, you would have helped me. God: Ha Ha..Why do you think I’m not your friend now? I don’t forsake people. I help people alike even if they are atheists.(He showed some things to Shreya). Do you remember these? Shreya: This is my diary where I wrote my complaints to you when I was 10 years old. Flowers that I offered you, chocolates for my birthday..So you preserved all these? (Shreya was moved) Then why did you take Kumar away from me? God: Child, I gave you a lot of courage and confidence but you weren’t strong to take these challenges. Every threat/disappointment gives an opportunity to improve yourself. Everytime you stumble, I lend you a hand. Don’t I? Shreya: Yes. That’s true. Whatever happened so far in my life had been good though I didn’t realize it. But Kumar? Why did you make us meet and love each other if he was not destined for me? God: Do you believe in me? Shreya: Yes. God: You desire Kumar but you do not deserve him. You both have made a positive difference in each other's life. I know its tough for you but everything happens for a reason. Life would be dull without challenges. When I give you challenges, I know that you can handle it. I don’t give problems that you can’t solve. Sometimes, when you struggle I send you help. Shreya: Oh God!! How foolish of me. I should not have killed myself. I want to live. Why didn’t you send me help? God: You are indeed a blessed child. Why else do you think I'm here? Shreya heard voices around her. She got up from her bed. All the incidents were flashing in her mind Kumar, pills, God, note.. Shankar. She realized it was a dream. She was alive. She had neither taken any sleeping pills nor did she write a note. She was crying and had slept. She woke up as a better person. Her mom gave her a coffee. Her brother, Arun, made fun “Amma, you love her more than me..see she’s getting her bed coffee”. Mom said, “For how many days Arun, all these are only till she’s here.” She hugged Shreya and shed a tear “Get ready soon.” Shreya liked Shankar. It wasn’t tough as she thought. Shankar loved her more than Kumar. It was tough to forget but easier to replace. All the while, she trusted God and understood that Shankar was given to her by God. Within a month, she had started loving Shankar. They had a happy life. She thanked God. She had learnt an important lesson in life. There is a saying in Tamil, meaning "He who plants the tree knows to water it". We are planted here by God and we have been given our roles in this drama called "Life". Its in our hands to perform well. The better we act, more satisfied we are. He is almighty and he knows to take care of us. Life is indeed a drama and making it beautiful or sad, is just in our hands. We have nothing to lose because we brought nothing with us. We need to start listening to God's voice which we have forgotton in this busy world !!

காதல்

உன்னை முதல் முறை பார்த்ததும் பிடித்ததே அன்று வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! நம் கண்கள் சந்தித்ததும் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! நாம் கைகோர்த்து நடக்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! நம் மெளனங்கள் பேசியதை கண்டு வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! இருவரும் மற்றவர் தவறுகளை மறக்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! உன்னை கடிந்து பேசியபின் நான் அழுகையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! உன் புன்னகையில் என் சோகங்களை மறக்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! என் சுமைகளை நீ சுமப்பதை கண்டு வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! என் கண்ணீருக்கு தோள் கொடுக்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! ஒவ்வொரு நிமிடமும் உன் நினைவுகள் என்னை ஆட்கொள்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! உன்னை பிறிந்த போதும் நீ என்னுள் இருக்கையில் வியந்தேன் இது தான் காதலா என்று !! இன்று உன் மடியில் குழந்தையென மாறியதும் உணர்ந்தேன் இது தான் காதல் என்று !! Updated - I've tried to translate it into English. “When I liked u at first sight, I wondered Is this love? When our eyes first met, I wondered Is this love? When we held our hands and walked together, I wondered Is this love? When our silence spoke a thousand words, I wondered Is this love? When we forgave each other’s faults, I wondered Is this love? When I burst into tears after I scold you, I wondered Is this love? When I forgot all my worries in your smile, I wondered Is this love? When you shoulder my burdens, I wondered Is this love? When you lend a shoulder to my tears, I wondered Is this love? When I can’t stop thinking about you even for a minute, I wondered Is this love? When we are apart, but still you are within me, I wondered Is this love? When I became a child on your lap, I realized This is love!! “ ***************************

Weird ??

Tagged by Jeevan and I’m weird enough to take this post. 1. I see God as a friend. He is no different to me. I love him and believe that HE is with me always. I fight with him when things go wrong. HE apologizes to me when I get hurt. So, I don’t respect him though I realize his immense power. 2. Appearances are deceptive. Should I say I’m a split personality ;-). My friends, collegues, relatives portray me as a confident person with immense will power for whom nothing is impossible. But only few people know the real me, delicate,fragile and sensitive to the power of infinity. This confuses me sometimes. 3. When I get into a situation where I can’t speak the truth maybe becoz it might worsen the situation or hurt someone I try to remain silent. But, I can’t remain so for a long time. So, in a conversation, I'll be the most talkative person so when I become silent my friends know that something is fishy and if provoked, they would see a “BhathraKaali”.;-) 4. I don’t know to react to appreciation. 5. I love nature. I just like sitting silently and watching the dew drops. I try to figure out the language of trees (as if there is any). It just gives me a peace making me forget all the worries. Sometimes, I get into another world and start forgetting who I am and why I’m here. An illusion like feeling. 6. Petty things give me more pleasure. Glass bangles, flowers, fluffy toys, a silent bike ride, hot coffee, rain, sleep on my mother’s lap etc. 7. I don’t like to see my face in the mirror. Lately, I’ve started wondering why? My face is not that bad ;-). 8. I hate shopping, particularly window shopping. I’ve never selected any of my dresses/jewels. Am I not interested or Am I lazy? I go shopping only when I really need to buy something. This is considered weird by all my friends ;-). I make my choice pretty quickly. I chose my wedding sarees in less than 12 minutes. The shopkeeper got confused and asked me if I'm the bride or I'm chosing so carelessly for someone else. 9. Being a vegetarian, I hate curd/buttermilk which is considered weird. I love cooking and love to see others enjoy the food I cook but I don’t enjoy eating. Could not think of anything else…but I think these give enough evidence that I’m weird ;-). Hoping to get the results of this "Most Weird Person" contest. Jeevan, done at last !!

Stars !!

When I was a child, I looked upon the sky and wondered How many stars are there and Why are they all feminine? I grew up as a pretty girl An apple of everyone's eye, Fell in love with a guy and Prayed to God he should be mine. Remembered my dad telling to me "Our family honour lies with you". I erased him from my mind and Married another and started loving him. I did my duty as a daughter Noone understood me. Everything was new, I missed my parents, Still I strived hard to earn everyone's heart. I failed again and again...but Thought I'd win one day. Once my husband told me "I was happy before marriage. I should have never married". It broke my heart into pieces. I prayed to God to take away my life What's the use in life when he hates me? I sat back and thought Why is he unhappy? What did I do wrong? Isn't it me who should be unhappy? I lost my lover just for him Life has changed more than 100% for me I've to shoulder responsibilities Make no mistakes and satisfy 2 families What did he lose to feel unhappy? He lives in the same house and gets his bed-coffee He lives with his parents and chats happily with them Still I wondered how can I make him happy? I go out to shopping taking hours to shop May be he's upset with that..Why do I do that? I want to get the best in the cheapest price He doesn't understand..so I stopped shopping. Thinking he would love me more..He did not. I stopped complaining to him Keeping my burdens within myself Thinking he would love me more..He did not. Life went by..and everyday I loved him more. He never appreciated me or loved me back. But never failed to shout at me when he was upset. I still told to myself.."He surely loves me". Just a blind faith. But I did my duty as a wife Noone understood me. We had a son...cute and naughty. He made me forget all my worries. Once he held my sari and told me "Amma, please don't go..stay with me". For these sweet words, I left my job. My only purpose in life was him. Days went and we had a daughter. Life was cool but still everyday I asked to myself Does he still love me? Is he really unhappy? As time flew, my son grew up I prayed that he should get into the best college He got selected but left me and joined a hostel "I'll be back in 4 years, mom" He promised me... I missed him a lot and waited eagerly He came back with a job..and I thanked all Gods He told me he has to go far away from me I missed him a lot and waited eagerly Years flew, and it was time to get my little daughter married And she was in love with a guy I tried to explain that she can never adapt to a different custom I thought my experience should help her She did not heed..she was adamant..love is blind. We got her married to her lover. She hated me because I advised her. She thanked her Dad and told him " I love you , Dad".. I did my duty as a mother Noone understood me. I searched for the most beautiful girl for my son I searched for all the qualities in her to make a perfect wife I was successful and they were made for each other But, I forgot to search for a daughter-in-law I tried to pass on my experiences to my daughter-in-law Which seemed to her like just interference So, I was again unwelcome. Even my husband blamed me saying "generation-gap" I tried to adjust I did my duty as a mother-in-law Noone understood me. I took care of my grand-children and told them stories My son left to US with "his" family.. I did my duty till now Noone understood me. ... We were both alone again. I had become weak with all these challenges One fine day God decided to end my sufferings I went to heaven and stood before him God asked me "Are you happy now..all your life you prayed to me to end your life. Finally I've answered your prayers" I told him that I'm not happy HE asked me "Why?" I told him I can't leave my husband alone. I want to take care of him always. HE thought for a while and gave me a boon HE made me a star twinkling brightly in the sky From where I could always see my husband,children and their family. I stayed there watching over them Guiding them when they needed me One day, my husband cried "I loved you so much. I was so happy to have a wife like you. I miss you" Those were the only words that I wanted to hear from him. But I realized people don't realize the value of someone when we're with them Tears dropped from my eyes and it fell as a raindrop on my husband's lap. He looked up, as if, he heard me calling him I hid behind a cloud becoz I did not want to cry before him I wanted him to think that I was happy always and he was the best husband I waited endlessly One day he was about to die I started to vanish and fall on the earth to be beside him And follow him to his next birth - Be it a cat or a caterpillar !! Now I know why stars are feminine Every selfless woman becomes a star Noone understands or appreciates her. But God does !!

Dreams & Premonitions !!

I've always wondered about dreams. Recently , I had a few good/meaningful dreams ;-) and wanted to know more. When do we dream? Why do we dream? I'm a sound sleeper..and least dreamer. My father, brother and sister used to give an account of their dreams everyday while my mom and I would have nothing to say. Little did I realize that there could be a scientific reason behind it. "REM (rapid eye movement) dreaming sleep usually occurs in ninety minute cycles throughout the night, before the onset of a period of SWS. As the night progresses, these intervals of REM increase in length until finally, the last two hours of slumber contain a high percentage of dreams. Therefore, we are more likely to catch ourselves dreaming towards the end of sleep - between the hours of five and eight in the morning for the average person." My father,sister and brother are early morning sleepers. My mom and I wake up well before 5 AM. So we don't have a chance to dream. So, first question answered. Next, what do dreams mean? I went to Dream Dictionary . Sadly, I've never had any dream resembling anything there. So I continued browsing and came here which says "Your dreams are all about *YOU* " "For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not. In a dream, in a vision of night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed; Then he openeth the ears of men and sealeth their instruction..." - Book of Job, 33:14-16 I've personally felt that my dreams answer my questions in some form. So this seems more apt to me. Some dreams are premonitions . As I said, I've had very few dreams and nearly all of them have come true to some extent. But, the best I could remember was an accident that I had. It was 2 years back, when I was getting ready to work..I had a dream which I couldn't remember except that someone told me to remain calm.. I took my scooty and right from that moment I knew I would face an accident. I was concentrating and driving as careful as possible but a part of my heart told me that something was wrong. As I was riding along a busy road, a guy in front of me skid and fell exactly in the middle of the road..though I had enough control, my scooty fell down becoz there's no place to turn, he was blocking the way..A big truck just stopped inches away from me..I wasn't hurt..got up and went to work. But I could never forget the incident. When my mom tells me something about omens I used to laugh at her. Unknowingly, I was concentrating at this guy in front of me and knew that he's going to fall down. Since, I was cautious, may be I was safe. The same might have happened with the truck driver, probably even he might have had an intuition and might have slowed down exactly. My mom used to say whatever has to happen will happen but if we are good, God will make our sufferings lesser. May be, that's true. This premonition works pretty well with others too. I usually drive fast and once I was rushing to the train station, when a guy came in the opposite direction zig-zagging in his bike. I instantly said to myself this guy is going to break his bones and I turned a bit hearing a noise and he had fallen down. I couldn't beleive it. I stopped for a few seconds and just went on (he had not broken his bones..just small scratches). It was not a curse, I have never seen him before and he didn't do anything to me...but something made me think he'll fall. I've started listening to myself more..probably our inner-self knows something more than us. My friends used to tell me to take a course on Psycology. It's 4 years now after this incident and I've started to improve on the aspect of mind-reading. One aspect I'm successful is that I'm able to sense a lie from someone and so flattery never works well on me. I've always wondered how yogis do this fore-seeing part. Should not be tough with some practice and probably a few books on Psycology ;-).

Prayer !!

On a rainy day, I peeped out of my window Saw a child playing with her doll Innocent smile on her lips Petal soft cheeks and little fingers Legs which could not hold herself straight Tears ran down my cheeks As I watched each drop roll down, I could see me in every stage of my life. I asked God, Why did I grow? Where is my smile that took away many hearts? Why am I alone here with noone to wipe my tears? Why can't I sleep on my mother's lap forgetting all worries? Why can't I hold my father's hand and keep walking endlessly? Oh, God..please take me back to those golden days.. God, didn't answer and as time flew I fell asleep I was standing in a desert and I saw a lot of people there. There was a tall dark, ugly man with a beard who seemed to have all diseases in the world, He was sitting on a stone in deep thought. As I walked towards him, I saw a small child struggle to walk in the sand I knew why I grew up, I needed strong legs for the journey I saw a girl, crying over a thorn in her feet I knew why I grew up, I learnt to bear pain I saw another man dying of thirst I knew why I grew up, I needed to be tolerant for tougher times I saw a man, yelling at everyone I knew why I grew up, I learnt to be patient and compassionate I went to the old man, and stared at him and asked why are you so miserable? Why am I here? Is it hell? What is that "hell"? That is where sinners go after death. Ha Ha.."sinners?". Child, there is no such thing as heaven or hell. People who have spent their lives usefully have a pleasant life here others just make their lives miserable even here. There's no punishment anywhere its they who punish themselves. I understood what he said..how foolish of me? I had a wonderful life. He asked me, Do you really accept that? I asked him How do you read my mind? I know u, in and out. I asked him..So are you God? Oh ! Ha Ha.. Is that how you call me..so be it. I like that name. Child, Call me however you want.I'm in-charge of this place. Lot of people talk to me everyday and call me by different names I started liking him..he was funny Why are you looking so tired? Come on .. everyone scold me when things go wrong. No one appreciates me .. though I try my best to make them happy That's not true..everyday we all thank you for a wonderful life. Ha Ha..child, Everyday, I hear you saying "My parents miss me now so take care of them. Take care of my sister/brother and keep them happy. I've got a caring husband and in-laws. Keep us all happy. Please see that my husband loves me always inspite of all mistakes I make And please be with me always". I said..smiling to myself..well..I don't remember exactly but still.. isn't that good? Ok..that's good. But then..before ur next prayer do you know how many times you scold me? I'm really sorry..but I just feel like blaming you when things go wrong. Aren't you the one who controls everything? So, if you are with me then why do I make mistakes? It's not your fault child..everyone does it. How can you learn without making mistakes? Yes..I've learnt a lot. So why am I here? Am I dead? Can't I go home? Like, will I have re-birth? Ha Ha..not so soon. Today you asked me something. So I thought you needed special attention and got you here. We'll decide on whether you want to go back or not. So, you don't smile now ..uh? Yes, I don't. Why? I don't know..but I always have something to worry about. As soon as I solve a problem another arises and life goes on. Hmm..when you were a child why were you smiling? I think, I had no worries. So why do you worry now? Don't you beleive that I'll take care of things. So as you grew up you didn't want me. You took things in your own hands. Child, stop worrying about life and you'll automatically be cheerful. I smiled and said yes I'll.. So, next complaint is you're alone..uh? Yes, I'm. Really? Am I not with you? And he winked.. But I miss my parents. Child, understand that every person has different roles to perform..and they need to keep moving as their roles are fulfilled. It's time for your parents to move higher as they've done their duties well. So, this temporary separation prepares you mentally for a final separation. No..you can't do that to my parents. You can't be cruel. Child, Will I let you suffer? I'm not cruel to you. I know that you'll miss your parent's love so I gave you someone to love you more. Didn't I? I gave you a lap to cry upon, a hand to hold lifelong to take care of you always. And, I want you to show it back too because even he has noone except you !! Yes, I understand. The rain had stopped The streets were clean So were I. I prayed again "Oh God, thanks for an excellent life"

Movies with a difference

I'm not that fond of movies. Having said that, I rarely watch a movie a secondtime. But there are a few movies which I like and are evergreen in my memory. Taking our Tamil movies, once my friend asked me "Why do you hate movies?". I told her "I don't hate movies but I don't love them either. When there is no thrill in watching a movie..why should we? "Love" is the theme of 99% movies. I'll tell u the crux of all movies 1. Love at first sight, parents oppose - lovers elope, face lot of opposition at last happy/sad ending. 2. Love after initial fighting, parents accept but fate kills one..other waits with tears. Second Hero/Heroine comes and atlast manages to marry the heroine/hero. 3. Lovers from birth, parents would be family friends..family problem so lovers are separated..finally happy/sad ending. 4. Triangle love - solli kaadhal, sollamal kaadhal, one sacrifices..blah-blah." This is/was what my opinion on movies. Worst of all, duet songs dancing around a tree would drive me crazy. At home, I'll fast fwd it or (if my sis opposes) just escape to do some other work ..in theatre I just close my eyes to hear the song (if at all song is good). The best "love" movie I liked was "Poovee Unakaaga".It was 10 years back. It was different to me..when there were 2 heroines, I expected a normal ending where Vijay would marry Sangeetha. The dialogues were too good. "Anandham.." song's wordings were hilarious. But, today that film seems so simple to me. "Alaipayuthe" was another movie I liked. Life after marriage (love) was depicted beautifully by Mani Ratnam. Songs made it better. Next was "Antha 7 naatkal" ..story line was different but the same story in "Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam" was excellent..Ajay Devgan's acting was too good. I've already seen the second part of the film 3 times (that's the only movie (part of it) I've seen 3 times). There were some movies which talked about women's freedom, remarriage etc..but all movies would cling to a fact that for a woman to remarry she should be a virgin..they would make vain attempts like killing the guy just before marriage, immediately after marriage in the altar, before nuptial night, etc. Then what's the point in picturing the hero as making a "sacrifice". "Nayagan" was a movie which I liked most..of all the aspects in the movie, there was one part I liked. Saranya was a prostitute by profession and Kamal marries her. It was the least spoken of part in the movie. But I think, a first bold step. But even after that "Kizhakku vaasal" was near yet so far. Even in "Rythm".. they tried to show that Meena was a virgin. A year back, I saw "Hum Tum", something like "real love" doesn't mind virginity. Today I saw the movie "Kuch naa kaho"..I thought it was similar to "Rythm" or a version of it..but it was different. As a film, both Abhishek and Aishwarya displayed poor acting. (Sharukh and Preity Zintha/Rani Mukherhee would have been better :-)). But, the story was good and I was surprised at the twists of the movie..I was disappointed when the film was suddenly heading towards a traditional finish.."Kanavane kan kanda theivam.." But then the dialogues at the climax were too good. Only minus was they needed a broad-minded american brought-up Abhishek to play the role. May be Indians are not yet mature !!. Right from my childhood...I've always had the opinion that English movies are "A" films. May be becoz that's how the conception is in Indian towns or, the only movies I had seen were that way. But now, I've started liking English movies. I've seen around 15 films in the past 1 month and I enjoyed each one of them. They're all so different that its no longer the same old love stories. Above all, no duet around the trees every 10-15 minutes. Of course, these movies also have romance but it seems more real than silly. Though I still love novels/books better, these movies are surely better than our tamil movies. I missed it all these years !! Konja naal-la bore adichidumaa nu theriyala :-).